It was recently asked of me, “how are you?” (in that real way, not in the precursor-to-asking-you-my-real-question way). So here’s my answer…
I’m doing okay – although in a bit of a malaise, I guess. I think I’m just trying to get a bearing on where I am in life and where I want to be – it’s something I haven’t ever taken much time to do. So yeah, it’s hard. And honestly, it’s pretty scary.
Figuring out my own life apart from all the things I have always expected and imagined is more confusing and a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. On a lot of levels. One of the only things I know for sure is that I must continue clinging to the elementary truths of faith and God’s nature – without them, I’m lost. Beyond that, I think my life, my future, and at the core, myself, can be summarized in a single symbol:
So keep praying for me as you think of it – God has His work to complete in me and I fear that I will miss it by grasping for petty pain-numbing pursuits of this world. I’m relying wholly on His faithful character to guide me through this life – God knows I can’t do it myself.