Existentialism and the Future

It was recently asked of me, “how are you?” (in that real way, not in the precursor-to-asking-you-my-real-question way). So here’s my answer…

I’m doing okay – although in a bit of a malaise, I guess. I think I’m just trying to get a bearing on where I am in life and where I want to be – it’s something I haven’t ever taken much time to do. So yeah, it’s hard. And honestly, it’s pretty scary.

Figuring out my own life apart from all the things I have always expected and imagined is more confusing and a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. On a lot of levels. One of the only things I know for sure is that I must continue clinging to the elementary truths of faith and God’s nature – without them, I’m lost. Beyond that, I think my life, my future, and at the core, myself, can be summarized in a single symbol:

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So keep praying for me as you think of it – God has His work to complete in me and I fear that I will miss it by grasping for petty pain-numbing pursuits of this world. I’m relying wholly on His faithful character to guide me through this life – God knows I can’t do it myself.

  1. Cool bro. The way you are handling things, and looking up to God, instead of down on life is incredibly inspiring. I am praying for you man, keep strong.
    Nathan Smith is the author. Sep 20, 16:57 is the time. <
  2. i think perhaps question marks stare us down more often than we’d like to percieve.
    tim is the author. Sep 25, 03:41 is the time. <
  3. Praying for you brother. And I agree with Mr Smith on this one… the way you handle things in your life, after all you’ve gone through, is totally inspiring!
    Larry Tomlinson is the author. Sep 27, 10:10 is the time. <
  4. Be strong and of good courage! Do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with your wherever you go. Keep walking by faith… God will heal.. I’ll keep you in my prayers..
    steve is the author. Oct 30, 01:06 is the time. <